I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing.

Dear XXXXX,
You think you know me that well, but really you don't. I wish you'd stop blaming me for all the things that are done wrong around you and starting realizing that I'm the only one doing it right. I wish you'd stop irritating me with your yapping and start yapping on others. You think I'm that bad that I don't care but you just don't realize that all that I've done was not to make you worry. I don't release my anger on you because others have hurt me, but you're the one that's hurting me. I wish you'd stop blaming those who are actually making me happy and start blaming yourself. I'm trying so hard to be the person you want me to be but you're crushing me and making me go back to square one. Why can't you see that? You say things like I'm a mistake in your life, then why bother having me in it in the first place? It's been two days I've have this feeling of just jumping of the building and maybe that will make everyone's life easier. Why do you treat me differently from the others? Is it just because I don't want to be a perfect person like you? Just because I want to be different? Just because I don't make an effort to be perfect? Why does it matter? I do things to make you proud but you look at it as though I'm just giving you more problems. You have no idea what you're putting me through and no idea how hard I'm trying. I just want this to stop. Please.